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If it's not, then it still isn't the end.
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Exactly a year + 3 days ago, a confession also happened. May umamin sa akin na mahal nya daw ako pero ayaw nya pang magmahal uli. She was my crush and I was also, during that time, falling for her. A similar thing happened today. The only difference is that, last year, it didn't affect me.
Just yesterday, Shara and I made up. I also told her what I have been feeling for the last three weeks. I told her na, "hangga't may panahon pa, kakayanin ko pang maghintay". It's true. I will wait for her. I will wait for her until the school year starts. I know that when the school year starts, since I'll be provinces away from her, and that I'll be in college already and that it's UP, I'll forget about her. I'll be able to forget my feelings for her and move on because I'll be too focused on school. Yun yung sabi ko sa kanya.
Then, today, she told me something about that. Sabi nya, gusto pa daw nya maging kami ulit pero kahit ano daw gawin nya, wala na syang feelings para sa akin. See? Just like last year. Ibang tao nga lang ngayon. I told her na kahit eto sabi nya sa akin, I'd still wait. I already made up my mind. I'll move on IF and WHEN the school year starts and still, nothing happened between us.
Nadagdagan na naman tuloy ang mga tanong ko. Pa'no nangyari yun? She wants to be with me pero she doesn't have feelings for me anymore. How did that happen? Is that even possible? (Well, I guess, it is now since she was able to do that.)
Tell me. Does that mean that you're in favour of what I have been thinking before? Na, parang "tayo" pero without the commitments? Does that mean that we could pretend na "tayo" until the school year starts again para lang mabawasan kahit kunti yung sakit na nararamdan ko?
But, of course, who would want that? According to you, "(your) feelings are not to be played with".
Welcome Abigail Malubag, here is your handwriting analysis.
Abigail is moderately outgoing. Her emotions are stirred by sympathy and heart rendering stories. In fact, she can be kind, friendly, affectionate and considerate of others. She has the ability to put herself into the other person's shoes.
Abigail will be somewhat moody, with highs and lows. Sometimes she will be happy, the next day she might be sad. She has the unique ability to get along equally well with what psychology calls introverts and extroverts. This is because she is in between. Psychology calls Abigail an ambivert. She understands the needs of both types. Although they get along, she will not tolerate anyone that is too "far out." She doesn't sway too far one way or the other.
When convincing her to buy a product or an idea, a heart rendering story could mean a great deal to her. She puts herself in the same situation as the person in the story, yet she will not buy anything that seems overly impractical or illogical. Abigail is an expressive person. She outwardly shows her emotions. She may even show traces of tears when hearing a sad story.
Abigail is a "middle-of-the-roader," politically as well as logically. She weighs both sides of an issue, sits on the fence, and then will decide when she finally has to. She basically doesn't relate to any far out ideas and usually won't go to the extreme on any issue.
People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Abigail doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.
Abigail is sensitive to criticism about her ideas and philosophies. She will sometimes worry what people will think if she tells them what she believes in. This doesn't mean she won't talk, or that she feels ashamed. It merely means she is sensitive to what others think, regarding her beliefs.
Abigail will be candid and direct when expressing her opinion. She will tell them what she thinks if they ask for it, whether they like it or not. So, if they don't really want her opinion, don't ask for it!
Diplomacy is one of Abigail's best attributes. She has the ability to say what others want to hear. She can have tact with others. She has the ability to state things in such a way as to not offend someone else. Abigail can disagree without being disagreeable.
In reference to Abigail's mental abilities, she has a very investigating and creating mind. She investigates projects rapidly because she is curious about many things. She gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but she soon must slow down and look at all the angles. She probably gets too many things going at once. When Abigail slows down, then she becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, she must slow down to do it. She then decides what projects she has time to finish. Thus she finishes at a slower pace than when she started the project.
She has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. Her mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. She can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Abigail can then switch into her low gear. When she is in the slower mode, she can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. She is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip.
Abigail is a practical person whose goals are planned, practical, and down to earth. This is typical of people with normal healthy self-esteem. She needs to visualize the end of a project before she starts. she finds joy in anticipation and planning. Notice that I said she plans everything she is going to do, that doesn't necessarily mean things go as planned. Abigail basically feels good about herself. She has a positive self-esteem which contributes to her success. She feels she has the ability to achieve anything she sets her mind to. However, she sets her goals using practicality-- not too "out of reach". She has enough self-confidence to leave a bad situation, yet, she will not take great risks, as they relate to her goals. A good esteem is one key to a happy life. Although there is room for improvement in the confidence catagery, her self-perception is better than average.
Abigail is sarcastic. This is a defense mechanism designed to protect her ego when she feels hurt. She pokes people harder than she gets poked. These sarcastic remarks can be very funny. They can also be harsh, bitter, and caustic at the same time.
Something is incomplete in Abigail's life. She feels frustration relating to her physical needs and desires. Somewhere in her life there is some disappointment, non-fulfillment, and interruption. This is very likely to relate to Abigail's sexual needs.
Abigail has a healthy imagination and displays a fair amount of trust. She lets new people into her circle of friends. She uses her imagination to understand new ideas, things, and people.
For a graphologist, the spacing on the page reflects the writer's attitude toward their own world and relationship to things in his or her own space. If the inputted data was correct Abigail has left some white space on the left side of the paper. Abigail fills up the rest of the page in a normal fashion moving the entire writing rightward as she moves down the page. If this is true, then Abigail has a healthy relationship to the past and is ready to move on. The right side of the page represents the future and Abigail is ready and willing to get started living now and planning for the future. Abigail is leaving the past behind and moving on to what she perceives as an exciting and enticing future.
Wala lang....I was just reading and browsing through some of the letters I received last year...particularly, the letters I got from 2 people.. and I was also reading my diary again...my diary whose entries are only of what happened between the three of us last year..
wala lang... Nag-iba na nga talaga ako from who I was last year.. and it was all because of what happened between her and I... Madami nang nagbago.. Hindi ko nga alam if it was for the better eh.. anyway.. ayun..
Miss ko na yung dati..sana palagi na lang ganun... :( :|
:|
Nakakainis! I have to take this text tomorrow, and the following day, and the day after that. :|
Tatlong araw akong pabalik-balik sa Los Banos just for that. 6 subjects sya. The exams wil be easy since high school lessons lang sya pero still!!! 3 weeks after the end of the school year??? Wala na akong naaalala nyan!!! Nakakabobo ang walang ginagawa noh and for the past weeks, that's all I've been doing - nothing!!! x-( And to think na University of the Philippines pa yun. Syempre mahirap!!!!
Okay na sana na pumasa ako ng UP eh. Pero why do I have to have 90+ score in all 4 subtests ng UPCAT?!?!?! Kung hindi nangyari yun, wala sana akong exams for 3 days!!! x-(
hai!!! kakayanin ko toh!! kailangan eh...tulong din to sa mga magulang ko...kahit na nakakatamad, kaya ko to!!!! :|
Let others know a little more about
yourself, repost this with your name
followed by "ology"
TECHNOLOGY
Q. What is your wallpaper on your
computer?
- windows vista
BIOLOGY
Q. Are you right-handed or left-handed?
- right-handed, pero minsan left..kapag wala lang,trip ko lang
Q. Have you ever had anything removed
from your body?
- nope
Q. What is the last heavy item you
lifted?
-myself :))
Q. Have you ever been knocked out?
- nope
BULLSHITOLOGY
Q. If it were possible, would you want
to know the day you were going to die?
- yes
Q. If you could change your name, what
would you change it to?
- noelle
Q. What color do you think looks best
on you?
- white :))
Q. Have you ever swallowed a non-food
item?
- yes...a small rubber used to arrange my teeth(braces)
DAREOLOGY
Q. Would you kiss a member of the same
sex for $100?
- sure
Q. Would you allow one of your little
fingers to be cut off for $200,000?
- hell no!!
Q. Would you never blog again for
$50,000
- why not.. :))
Q. Would you pose naked in a magazine
for $250,000?
- no freaking way!!!=))
Q. Would you drink an entire bottle of
hot sauce for $1000?
- hindi nga ako gumagamit nung sachet lang eh isang bote oa kaya.. :))
Q. Would you, without fear of
punishment, take a human life for
$1,000,000?
- maybe..(pero yung mga masasamang tao lang like....villains:)) )
DUMBOLOGY
Q: What is in your left pocket?
-my comb
Q: Is Napoleon Dynamite actually a good
movie?
-how the hell should i know? i've never watched it before
Q: Do you have hardwood or carpet in
your house?
- yes
Q: Do you sit or stand in the shower?
- stand
Q: How many pairs of flip flops do you
own?
- none. lame me :| :))
Lastology
Q: Last person who texted you?
- ate reann
Q: Last person who called u?
- mama
Q: Person you hugged?
- shara (acually, she hugged me)
FAVORITOLOGY
Q: Number?
- 214 (laki noh? :)) )
Q: Season?
- winter..kaso walng winter dito sa pilipinas kaya summer na lang :))
Q: Color?
- blue
CURRENTOLOGY
Q: Missing someone?
- idk :|
Q: Mood?
- blank :|
Q: Listening to?
- the fan :))
Q: Watching?
- nothing
Q: Worrying about?
- my exams tomorrow, and then the next day..and then the next day..(yes,people..i have exams tom :| )
Q: Wearing?
- p.e. shirt and black shorts and underwear:D
RANDOMOLOGY
Q: First place you went this morning?
- bathroom
Q: What can you not wait to do?
- go out
Q: Do you smile often?
- nope
Q: Are you a friendly person?
- maybe
Nothing. It seems as if that's all I've been "doing" this summer. Well, there's surfing the net and, (rarely) texting and watching t.v. or movies but other than that, nothing. I do go out. Pero sa kapitbahay lang. I'm not saying na it's not fun spending my time with my friends here in the village because, believe me, I have a lot of fun when I'm with them, pero parang nagiging routine na sya. I mean, walang nagbabago. Gigising ako ng 10. Maliligo, kakain, mag-iinternet, lalabas. Uuwi, Kakain, mag-iinternet, matutulog. Then, tomorrow, same process. That summarizes my summer (so far).
Oh yah. Two more words that describes my summer. PAIN and MAXX. Pain kasi I've been having this MAJOR headache since the end of school year. Hindi na nawala. And since may braces din ako (which is adjusted every month), sumasakit ngipin ko every after adjusting it. Tapos, ang drama ko rin (sabi na rin nila). Emotional Pain(?). And Maxx kasi kain ako nang kain nun.
Since "tinag" ako ni ate ara at dahil na rin sa wala akong magawa...
8 facts about yourself, you share 8 things that people don't know about you. Then at the end you tag 8 other bloggers to keep the fun going.
* Each blogger must post these rules first.
* Each blogger starts with eight random facts/habits about themselves.
* Bloggers that are tagged need to write on their own blog about their eight things and post these rules.
* At the end of your blog, you need to choose eight people to get tagged and list their names.
* Don't forget to leave them a comment telling them they're tagged, and to read your blog.
I still love the person I've loved for the past 10 months even though I've told her that I'll move on already. :|
I'm tagging Maine, Ate Reann, Shara, Sarah, Frances Caluya, Jaja, Gwenie, Camille Tecson. :D
from Migs Cartagena...
"Treat me like an angel and I'll be your lil' devil."
"Life is not measured by the breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away."
"Never think about the mistakes you made. Think about the mistakes you will make."
"To learn to succeed, you must first learn to fail."
"Sure there have been injuries and deaths in boxing - but none of them serious."
from Monica Canta..
H.O.L.L.A.N.D. - Hope Our Love Lasts And Never Dies.
I.T.A.L.Y. - I Trust And Love You.
L.I.B.Y.A. - Love Is Beautiful; You Also. (MY FAVORITE. HAHAHAHA)
F.R.A.N.C.E. - Friendships Remain And Never Can End.
C.H.I.N.A. - Come Here.. I Need Affection.
B.U.R.M.A. - Between Us, Remember Me Always.
N.E.P.A.L. - Never Ever Part As Lovers.
I.N.D.I.A. - I Nearly Died In Adoration.
K.E.N.Y.A. - Keep Everything Nice, Yet Arousing.
C.A.N.A.D.A. - Cute And Naughty Action that Developed into Attraction
K.O.R.E.A. - Keep Optimistic Regardless of Every Adversity.
E.G.Y.P.T. - Everything's Great, You Pretty Thing!
R.U.S.S.I.A. - Romance Under the Sky & Stars is Intimate Always.
M.A.N.I.L.A. - May All Nights Inspire Love Always.
B.A.L.I.W.A.G. - Beauty And Love I Will Always Give.
M.A.L.A.B.O.N. - May A Lasting Affair Be Ours Now.
I.M.U.S. - I Miss U, Sweetheart.
P.A.S.I.G. - Please Always Say I'm Gorgeous.
C.E.B.U. - Change Everything... But Us.
P.E.R.U. - Porget Everyone... Remember Us. (weh epal)
P.A.R.A.N.A.Q.U.E. - Please Always Remain Adorable, Nice
And Quiet Under Ecstacy.
T.O.N.D.O. - Tonight's Our Night, Dearest One.
P.A.S.A.Y. - Pretty And Sexy Are You.
Y.E.M.E.N. - 'Yugyugan Every Morning, Every Night. (bastos :|)
M.A.R.L.B.O.R.O. - Men Always Remember Love Because Of
Romance Only.
Y.A.M.A.H.A. - You Are My Angel! Happy Anniversary!
happyYay!! SO cool!!! I can write my blog entries Windows Live Writer. It's an outside program (got it from Windows Live) which enables me to write in a diary (offline(not sure)) then publish it in a blog I want. :) Anyway.
I finally showed her the video. Well, actually, I have her USB then I secretly saved it there then when we were together again (she was outside waiting for me to be done saving songs into her USB), I told her that there is a video there(USB) and that she can view it but she has to view it alone. Tinanong nya ako kung pano yun, eh mag-isa lang daw sha magcocomputer (it was already night time) so I accompanied her home then we both viewed the video. If only I blush (I don't), I'd be blood-red earlier. As in! Tapos ayun. As I was already leaving their house, sabi nya sa akin she was still shocked by the video. "Parang 'WOW!'" was her exact words. Sabi rin nya na may utang pa sha sa akin. Hindi pa daw nya nasabi yung feelings nya. So, I have to wait for a time when we'll be alone again.
Si Sarah, parang may balak pa atang pagbalikin kami.:| Kasi ba naman. Yesterday, she was talking with a friend over the phone. Eh nag-PC din sila ni Shara so gusto nya ako na lang kumausap dun sa friend nya. Eh tinanong ata kung sino ako, Sarah told her that I was her bestfriend. Then she changed her answer to "syota ng bestfriend ko" (Shara is her bestfriend). Then, earlier, when we wanted to get something from her, she was already inside their house. Kami ni Shara, nasa labas. EH kapag tamad na tamad ako, I would always hold a friend's uniform or whatever they are wearing. Eh kanina, I was feeling SO lazy kaya nakahawak ako sa shirt ni Shara. Nung lumabas ni Sarah, iba yung tingin nya sa amin. The look was like she saw SOMETHING. Tapos, nakatingin din sya sa kamay ko na nakakapit kay Shara. Then, when we went back at her house to return her mp4, when she opened the door, sabi nya "magkakabalikan kayo nyan" or something like that then (again) she looked at my hand na (again) nakakapit kay Shara.
So ayun. Tawa din pala ako nang tawa kanina. Nawiweirdohan na nga si Shara sa akin eh. (Hindi naman kasi ako ganun dati. Walang sound tawa ko). Oh. And uhhmm. I was supposed to hold her hand nung magkatabi kami kanina and hug her and hold her waist and whisper to her that I miss her kaso hindi ko nagawa. LAME ME. :| But, that's good. At least, I'm starting to refrain myself/stop myself from doing things to her na I have no right to do anymore kasi nga we're not together anymore. :|
HAPPY. :D Thanks, guys. :)
I'm sorry I did not talk (much) ealier. Bumabalik na nga siguro ako to what I was before. I'm sorry. I don't know why I'm like this. Ewan ko ba. Nung end of the school year (St. Paul) pa ako ganto eh. Naging distant na ako sa inyo. I'm sorry. And as the days pass by, mas lalo akong nagiging distant. I'm sorry. Two or three days ago, kay Shara lang ako distant and during that time, I know why. Kasi nga, I'm hurting. Ngayon, after I told her what I feel, I know that I'll be more distant. I'm sorry. Hindi naman talaga dapat ako hindi magsasalita kanina eh. Oo, I may be distant pero it doesn't mean na hindi ko na kayo kakausapin at papansinin. It's just that, I didn't really expect to be with you guys tonight. Alam ko kasing impossible yun kasi nga hindi ko naman kayo ma-contact pareho. And you know me. I don't just go to other people's houses without being invited or asking permission from them. Kaya ayun. Nanahiik na lang ako kanina. I'm sorry. I also can't relate. Music is not my thing. I'm sorry. I do like music is just that I'm not into it as much as you two are. Nung nanunuod naman kayo ng bloopers, sumasakigt na ulo ko, and I was getting dizzy already. Wala na ako sa sarili ko nun kasi sobrang hilong-hilo na ako kaya hindi ko kayo naka-usap, hindi ko kayo sinasagot. I'm sorry.
I'm sorry.
I guess that's all I can say.
I'm sorry.
WALA AKONG MASABI!!! EWAN KO!!! AYOKO NA!!!! X-( GRRRRR!!!!!!!!
For you:
Yesterday, iba talaga voice mo. Nung una, naiinis pa ako. Kasi akala ko iniisip mo na naman yung crush mo sa room nyo. But no, I was so wrong. Hindi naman pala sya yung namimiss mo. Ako pala. And to think, naiinis pa ako sa taong namimiss mo.
Kanina rin, bigla mong sinabing mamimissko yung ganto - yung nasa bahay mo ako lagi kasi wala lang, trip ko lang. Mamimiss mo yung may kausap ka sa gabi.
I'll miss you too. SOBRA! Hindi pa nga ako napapalayo sayo, nakapagbigay na ako ng 50 things I miss about you, pano pa kaya if we're provinces away. Kahit na malayo ako sayo, don't worry. Meron pa tayong 2 buwan na susulitin. And even after those 2 months, I'd still be there for you, though I won't be physically present. Andito lang ako lagi. Kelan ba ako nawala? Kahit nga hindi mo ako kailangan, nandyan ako eh, 'di ba? I'm just a text away. You could still talk to me. Hindi nga lang kasing dalas nitong nakaraang school year. Just remember what I always tell you, yung mga bagay na sinasabi ko sayo dati. I'M GONNA MISS YOU SO MUCH!!!
Btw, If I was the one you texted you this afternoon, I would have said.....
I still love you. :|